notaloneinthisworld

Eyes shut, breathing heavy, tears streaming down, sawing deeper and deeper with every cut. It's not fair, dying slowly inside. Wondering when the anxieties will take over. Scars, cuts, and bruises cover skin like clothes. Silently wishing someone will notice. But even if they did, would the truth be told? Lying about home becomes second nature, lies become so detailed, and the truth is thrown away. Each minute is a fight; each day is a battle won. Every heart beat, every smile; attempting to do what is right. Scared to go home, anxious to wonder what will happen. Fear fills the eyes, legs grow heavy, praying si

Sleep in heavenly peace child, for soon all shall be silenced in a bitter-sweet thing we call death. Keep your eyes shut and know peace will be with you always. Though no one is certain on what will happen next, do not worry as you stand before the Jury. Breathe slowly and listen to the sounds of the Earth. Touch the softness of the sheets on the bed. While favorite memories replay in your head. Keeping in mind this may be your last time. Familiar voice are touching your heart. Songs of the melancholic machine continue in a slow rhythmic tone. Sounds from sobs fill my ears. Feeling lighter and lighter, as the pressure in h

Silenced from a young age, words became my voice. I did not speak for fear filled me. All the hurt, the pain, was bottled up. I was told it would make everything better. But what did that do? I shut out the world, and wore a mask. Never speaking the truth. I learned to deny reality. Hoping my life was not true. Smiling through pain never has been so easy. Until the day, I had no choice. Alone I sat in the abyss of my room. Surrounded by nothing but books. In my room I always knew, it was safe too. It was there I realized I knew what I had to do. Books had become my refuge. So I began to write. Emotions we

My heart goes out to those in pain. To whom no one is there to comfort them. For everyone who has the feeling of being alone. All the people in world who think a blade is the answer. For the people each day, struggling to say alive. To  all the people who are told they are not good enough, or they can not do something. For all the people whom are suppressed from being themselves. All who are fighting for something they love. Most people whose smile is not a real one. For each and every person wearing a mask, because society is not welcoming. Every broken heart in the world. To those people whom are abused by people who are

Want to know a secret? I lied when I said I did not like you. Why you may ask? I lack the courage to tell the truth. Each day we talk, learning more about each other. Stories are shared and games are played. Cute things are passed back and forth like a game of pass. Leading me to believe we were falling in love. It may have been true, I do not know. I keep thinking about what could have been. Sometimes I wish she never said what I could not. Maybe then I would have told you. All that I have now is regret. Sitting here, watching her with you. It is enough to make my heart brake Never in my life have I been the jealous type

Feeling down? Like no one else is around? Believe me hun, I am here. I care. I can not promise to take all the issues away. But I can promise you that you will never have to face them alone. I don't really know you, But I still love you. Those scars on your arms and legs? Theighs and hips too? They are evidence. That you are strong enough to feel. You have the courage to let your explore. Even if it seems like you can not go on, You can and you did. Like the feeling of blood rushing down? All the pressure being taken off, Letting yourself to be free. It is not fun to keep everything all kept up. Any "negative" form

In your eyes I find passion, in your mind intelligence. In your arms I seek protection, and in your heart, love. I was told not to obtain what I wanted, only what I needed. Because if I have what I needed, I would get what I wanted. You looked at me and smiled, and stared just for a while. She ran up, interrupting our gazes, and kissed you. While I just watched. I told you I was never jealous, because I know you wanted me happy. Thoughts had arisen, in both you and me. Maybe, just maybe, we both realized, we may truly meant to be. For now I can see that wont happen, because you still love her. I know you love me

Will I ever be more to you? Then the best friend you put me as. You complain about not finding the perfect girl, I just keep telling you to open your eyes. I may be just in front of you. I have never hurt you or broke your heart. Yet I am always there to pick you up. And piece your heart back together. You say I am the best friend. Well, do you think, maybe, just maybe, I want to be more than friends? Everyone says we are meant to be. Why don't you? I know you like her, but you haven't even spoken to her. Each day you see me, I am sitting there, in the friends zone. Where you left me. Have you ever thought that I want to

You talked like I'm the only one. Keeping me so close to you. Made my heart skip a beat. Every time I glanced at you, I feel deeper in love with you. With words you hypnotized me. Looks, brains, my heart, there is nothing you do not have. You played me like a game. My emotions being the cards, and my heart being the dice. Throwing it around on the board, I watched as I started to fall apart. I believed you when you said you cared. Just like in poker, you played your hand well. Keeping a straight face, hiding all emotions. You fooled everyone, not just me. I never wanted to believe it. You lead me on like a dog on a le

I am sorry I can't be the perfect daughter. I am sorry I am not skinny or who expected me to be. But I am not sorry for being me. Take me for who I am, and I promise you, that is all I will ever be. I asked you to listen, instead you turned me away. Away to nothing. For once in my life, I tried to open up. You quickly closed me up. Told me to lock myself away. Well I have got news for you, I will never be silenced. I may not speak much, but when I do, you can imagine how passionate my words are. You blame me for everything that has gone wrong in your life, well I am sorry I can not be the perfect daughter. I am sorry I